Received this facebook email notification about this Burma (Myanmar) app and was reading up about Burma's democracy icon Aung San Suu Kyi who's still under house arrest and sacrificed her family nobly for her nation... even to the extent of choosing not to see her husband for the last time before his passing, all for the sake of national interests..... when I came across another lady who's a symbol of strength to the Burmese people, Nilar Thein...

Felt touched by her article on being separated from her daughter for 10 months by now and a wave of melancholic sadness came over me...

"We were playing hide and seek. I was looking at her from behind a tree. She was so beautiful, with the prettiest smile on her face, looking for me happily. I couldn't hide anymore. I wanted her to find me. I wanted to hold her in my arms and kiss her face gently. I started to show myself to her, but, suddenly I saw three men -with black coats and ugly faces - watching from the shadows near my daughter. I stepped back. I wanted to be found by my daughter, not by them. I still saw my daughter, still looking for me with her innocent smile. I didn't want to hide anymore. I wanted her to find me, but these men would take me away and put me in hell. Then I woke up, with tears on my cheeks." ~ Nilar Thein, 19 June 2008

It's so poetic, but yet so sad and helplessly real.... a kind of pain that only mothers can totally understand.
The pain of separation through circumstances and the choice to b a nation's hope instead... I guess the choice is really not an easy one to make as most of us are much luckier not to be born in such circumstances... May these 2 admirable women continue to find the strength to fight on because in Burma, hope really hurts.

Link to article
US Campaign for Burma

Today's a Monday... and I am bent on clearing my to-do list!
Well on the bright side, my mood's pretty back to normal... coz my appetite for food and sleep more or less came back haha.... maybe because I've thought some things through and the knee pain isn't ebbing as badly as before...

As for the past week, my gf brought me to catch the Sex N The City movie on Friday night... its kinky sense of humour lightened me up considerably... had a few good laffs.... thanks ger =) and i took the chance to ponder on bothersome issues while walking home for the one hour in the cool night breeze.... though the end result is still sweatiness... haha... the Southern Ridges park connector walk (starting from Mount Faber) with d gurls on Sunday was postponed... just as well... heee coz my leg was hurting from the injury and all that walkin' this week...

Went for dinner @ Vivo at Tung Lok with my family for my dad's birthday on Saturday... the Beijing duck's really good and the white chocolate espresso cake from Bakerzin's simply delicious... =) * drool * Glad that Dad was really happy.




~ Sometimes, it's the simplest things in life that makes you happy.

Shelter ~ Corrinne May

What's wrong, what's getting you down
Is it something I might have said?
You're walking around
with your head to the ground
and your eyes are watery red

I know you've been through rough times
Kicked around, thrown to the ground
but you've always been the strong one
So don't tell me that nobody gets you
'cause I'm standing in your corner
Knocking at your door
You don't have to be alone

Just call my name
Let me be an answer
'cause it hurts me to see you this way
I wanna ease your pain
Help me understand
Let me be your shelter my friend

We share a bond
You and I we belong
We're like coffee and morning trains
You strip my defenses
I catch your pretenses
The same blood runs through our veins
I swore I'd be your lifeline
Made a vow that I'd surround you with love at every milestone
I'll listen when nobody gets you
I'm still standing in your corner
Waiting by your door
You don't have to be alone

Just call my name
Let me be an answer
'cause it hurts me to see you this way
I wanna ease your pain
Help me understand
Let me be your shelter my friend

It was not too long ago
You sought to understand
You helped me mend
Remember when
So promise me you'll

Call my name
Let me be an answer
'cause it hurts me to see you this way
I wanna ease your pain
Help me understand
Let my be your shelter my friend

Been feelin' down recently and random thoughts are running through wildly in my head... so I feel like I have to put them down in words before I go mad...

Read my facebook horoscope today and as usual, it's pretty true...


"Feel free to pat yourself on the back if no one else does it for you. Paying attention to the details of the big picture continues as a number of important changes go on around you. The end result is what's important; how you get there is secondary. Unanswered questions may cause you to re-evaluate your beliefs."

For the chinese zodiac one: "Try to single out those of your acquaintances who deserve to be retained and cultivated; no pity for nuisances! At work, you must beware of the risk of catching at shadows. Opportunities will present themselves to you in more than one field; what's necessary will be not to let your chance go by out of carelessness. It would be time to ask for help if you cannot manage the situation alone."

It does catch some ball with me.... been feelin' oh so restless physically.... I guess it's partly due to the torn knee cartilage pain that has been haunting me especially this week... it's gotten so bad that it hurts all the time.... I can't sleep, can't eat, can't walk, can't run.... :( Due to recent complexities, I can feel the powerful surge of negative energy runnin' through me and been thinking a lot... worst thing is that I cannot exercise to vent out my frustrations! Arrrgh. I guess I juz have to put it to some positive use like completing my to-do tasks!

Emotionally wise, it's been a roller coaster ride and I just feel let down by human nature.... A sense of déjà vu hit me.... once again... and a sense of emptiness hits me.... lookin' back, would I have done things differently if I could reverse time? Maybe yes, but I guess I have just learnt another lesson on life... for real this time... Like what the previous day's horoscope was saying...
"Even if u end up back at d starting point, u feel as if you've been somewhere. You're pushing to get ahead, but u might b frustrated. Put your negative energy to good use."

As one close fren of mine reminded me again... "Learn to let go of something, and it's meant to be yours, it'll come back eventually." A philosophy that I live by.... coz it's so true...

Juz a thought... helping people without any expectation of returns is what I like and do not mind doing. A sincere and simple 'thank u' from the bottom of the heart would be a nice bonus though if I get it. I'll feel that everything I've done is worth it, even if I have sacrificed some really important things that matter to me the most. If not, at least I know I've done my part.

What I do not expect to get instead is the nonsensical behaviour of piling all the blame on to others when things go awry. If it's partly someone's fault, of coz the person cannot expect to be absolved of all blame; but pushing all responsibility for everything and anything that happens on that person is a selfish masquerade in play... Why sit down and wait till things happen, then blame it all on someone else who does all the work? Isn't it better to play your own part and take more initiative? Once again... a sense of déjà vu.... I m thinking we ain't young anymore, how can such childishness and lack of common sense still exist?! It's high time to grow up man.... really high time... Maybe the issue is not lack of sense, but the want to find an excuse for own behaviour...

I guess what's important is that I have done my best, given what was at stake and I can proudly say that out. Ignoring what others say about you when your conscience is clear is something I have endured and will endure once again. Through experiences, I'm glad to know that I have true friends who are nice to me just simply coz they want to, who really understand me, give me their 50 cents' worth point of view and stand by me when it matters.

True friends are not people who just wanna have fun with you, but are also people who are willing to ride out hard times together with you. To my closest frens who have helped, encouraged me; given me hope and light through all my emotional ups and downs, Thank You =) It means so much to me. Love u people!

The way to really get something is to make effort and earn it, and not stand by and get jealous of someone else's fruit...

All We Are - One Republic

I tried to paint you a picture
The colours were all wrong
Black and white didn't fit you and all along
you were shaded with patience
You're strokes of everything that I need
just to make it and I believe that

I walked a minute in your shoes
They never would've fit
I figured there's nothing to lose
I need to get some perspective on these words
before I write them down
You're an island and my ship is running ground

Time can tear you apart
But it won't break anything that we are, we are

We won't say our goodbyes
You know it's better that way
We won't break
We won't die
It's just a moment of change
All we are
All we are is everything that's right
All we need
A lover's alibi

Every single day that I can breathe you change my philosophy
I'm never gonna let you pass me by