James Morrison ft. Nelly Furtado ~ Broken Strings

Let me hold you
For the last time
It's the last chance to feel again
But you broke me
Now I can't feel anything

When I love you,
It's so untrue
I can't even convince myself
When I'm speaking,
It's the voice of someone else

Oh it tears me up
I try to hold on, but it hurts too much
I try to forgive, but it's not enough to make it all okay

You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh the truth hurts
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before

Oh what are we doing
We are turning into dust
Playing house in the ruins of us

Running back through the fire
When there's nothing left to save
It's like chasing the very last train when it's too late

Oh it tears me up
I try to hold on, but it hurts too much
I try to forgive, but it's not enough to make it all okay

You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell something that ain't real

Well the truth hurts,
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before

But we're running through the fire
When there's nothing left to save
It's like chasing the very last train
When we both know it's too late (too late)

You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel
I cant tell you something that ain't real

Well truth hurts,
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before


Let me hold you for the last time
It's the last chance to feel again

Swing Out Sisters ~ Am I The Same Girl?

Why don't you stop
And look me over
Am i the same girl you used to know?

Why don't you stop
And think it over
Am i the same girl who knew your soul?

I'm the one you want
And i'm the one you need
I'm the one you love
I'm the one you used to meet

Around the corner
Everyday
We would meet
And slip away
But we were much too young
To love each other this way

Am i the same girl?
(yes i am, yes i am)
Am i the same girl?
(yes i am, yes i am)

Why don't you stop
And look me over
Am i the same girl you used to know?
Why don't you stop
And think it over
Am i the same girl who knew your soul?

I'm the one you hurt
And i'm the one you need
I'm the one who cried
I'm the one you used to meet
But you are pretending you don't care
But the fire is still there
Now we are no longer too young
To love each other this way

Am i the same girl?
(yes i am, yes i am)
Am i the same girl?
(yes i am, yes i am)

Am i the same girl?
(yes i am, yes i am)
Am i the same girl?
(yes i am, yes i am)

Have you ever felt the need for something more
With every week comes scratching at your door
Have you ever stopped and wonder what it is you're searching for
Push your luck too far with me
But if you push it any further
You won't have any

Am i the same girl?
Am i the same girl?
(yes i am, yes i am)

A continuation of flogging...

Ms Soon's ROM @ Dallas...

I am so happy for your found happiness, my dear friend.... =)







Chau Chau's Kong Long Day

In response to the Devil-misu, here's a cake fit for fuming dinosaurs... presenting the Dino-misu... complete with 黄 dinos in the desertstorm dessert...
Yes... 黄 Kong Long lived up to expectations by blowing cocoa dust all over! =p


What I got back in return... never thought I'll love braised pig intestines! Really comforting soul food... reminiscent of my fav bak ku teh... * counting the consumed calories post-meal * =p


Delicious Taiwanese beef noodles....

Food with family & friends in Dec... birthdays and all...
Some feelings cannot be expressed in words so... I'll let pics do the talking...
Thank You. =)

The Devil-misu.... tiramisu with a twist... Thanks for the movie & birthday treat, Chau Chau! =)

Really tasty & spicy... seafood aglio olio.... * drool *

My "birthday treat".... haha... the icy cold strawberry...

Really enjoyed this one... it's really "appetizing" =p

Cheese baked rice! I have not had this in a long, long while....

Thanks for the lovely cake! Reminds me of chocolate panna cotta... =)

Giraffe dessert cakes... in beautiful presentation....

Prawn Tagliatelle (tahl-yuh-tel-ee)...


Pizza!




Really lovely cookies!


Max Brenner's choc fondue with fruits and comforting warm cake... one word... chocolicious!


The Melicious Birthday... glad you enjoyed the sinfully sweet choc ganache marshmallow cream melted cheesecake! =)


To take the red or the blue pill? The brown or the purple cake?
(The culprit's the purple one? Hmmmz...)



My dear mummy's birthday! Hee... cake was kinda flourily disastrous... =p

My dearest doggie's seventh muffin birthday!

Dear old granny's 93rd birthday.... =)


Mini cakes...


Dad's spicy fare... sambal stingray & thick Indian curry chicken... fumingly delicious!


My sinfully superindulgent chocolate oozing cakes...


Another variation of chocolate molten cakes for Christmas....


Christmas pizza works of my creative cousins... =)


Christmas choc cheesecake & chocolate fondue time again!


Christmas goodies from friends and family!


Japanese dining @ Kushin Bo... was filled to the brim! Loved the sushi and mochi... in addition to all the snow crabs & teppanyaki meat...
* blurp *

Soul Decision - Ooh It's Kinda Crazy

If you want my love
Help me heal the pain in my eyes

Ohh it's kinda crazy
I've been thinkin' maybe
Gotta get you out of my mind
First you say you want me
Now your memories haunt me
Why don't you just give me a sign

I thought I had someone that
I could fall in love with
Someone who would treat me right
So I tried to be so kind
I thought for sure
I'd make you mine
but something's weighing up on my mind

Why don't you take my hand
And help me understand
Cause I can't figure out
What you're thinkin' about
Why don't you let me know
Don't want to be alone
Going out of my mind
Waiting for the day
You'll say you'll be mine

If you want my love
(Why don't you show me then)
Help me heal the pain in my eyes
(I know you want me now)
If you want my love
Why don't you tell me
Cause I've had enough of
Plastic people wasting my time

* Repeat chorus *

Thought I had, someone that
I could really care for
Someone who won't waste my time
(Don't lead me on)
But now I find that you lie
You're always out with other guys
Is that the way you're playing with my mind?

Why don't you take my hand
And help me understand
Cause I can't figure out
What you're thinking about
Why don't you let me know
Don't want to be alone
Going out of my mind
Waiting for the day that
You'll say you'll be mine

If you want my love
(Why don't you show me then)
Help me heal the pain in my eyes
(I know you want me now)
If you want my love
Why don't you tell me
Cause I've had enough of
Plastic people wasting my time

* Repeat Chorus *

Showed you all that I am
And I treated you well
Gave you half of my heart
But you tore it to hell
Give me someone who won't lie
And won't cheat on me
Baby up in my room
That's exactly what you asked of me
Baby if you want my love
If you want my love

Oh, yeah then why don't you just
Take my hand and help me understand
Going out of my mind
Waiting for the day that
You'll say you'll be mine
Baby if you want my love
If you want my love
I've had enough
I've had enough

Ohh, it's kinda crazy
(I've had enough)
Gotta get you out of my mind
(I've had enough)
First you say you want me
(I've had enough)
Why don't you just give me a sign

Kylie Minogue ~ Dancefloor

Good times, bad times, baby, you're in trouble
You stole my heart and you've given me up
And we're not even friends so how can we be lovers?
I want to know the truth
'cause I've had enough
I'm sick and tired of pleasing you
Have I had your love?
Is that the best you can do?
U can dream of changing my mind
But you're wasting your time
'cause if you think you've got me right, just watch me

On the dancefloor
Gonna lose it in the music
On the dancefloor
Got my body, going to use it
On the dancefloor
The best that you never had but now you've lost me
So come on watch me getting over you

Had your chance but baby, you blew it
U never loved me and baby, you knew it
And every time that you messed with my mind
I still believed in you
'cause I've had enough
I'm sick and tired of pleasing you
Have I had your love?
Is that the best you can do?
You can dream of changing my mind
But you're way out of line
'cause if you think you've got me
Boy, just watch me

On the dancefloor
Gonna lose it in the music
On the dancefloor
Got my body, going to use it
On the dancefloor
The best that you never had but now you've lost me
So come on watch me getting over you

Alas... back to the melodramatic me... just finished watching 2 dramas, Miss No Good [不良笑花] & The Little Nyonya 【小娘惹】... now my eyes are all puffy... haha... (I know I am not the only one =p).... the former a modern romance comedy drama about the pairing of a fashion seemingly aloof stylist (Pan Wei Bo) with the ultimate fashion disastrous girl (Rainie Yang) with a lighthearted ending (leading to otherwise sane ladies saying 我要呼呼 Woohoo! =p) and the latter being the local drama of the year with a stellar cast... a nostalgic drama in an old fashioned Peranakan setting with lots of heart-rending, never-ending suffering, evil plotting, lots of cursing the baddies (everyone hates demonic Robert Zhang to the core, but someone I know of actually idolizes him rite... much to my exasperation as usual.. =p) and with a much heavier, realistic ending... so sad... hmmz I wonder which role can we all relate to the most in real life... alas... all the melancholy is getting to me... back to reality now! Haha but in the meanwhile, thought I'll share the lyrics to 2 of their theme songs here...



[不良笑花] 片尾曲插曲
楊丞琳 ~ 帶我走

每次我總 一個人走
Everytime, it's only me walking alone.

交叉路口 自己生活
Crossing the intersection and living by myself.

這次你卻說帶我走
This time however, you said you'll take me away

某個角落 就你和我
to a corner where it's only me and you.

像土壤抓緊花的迷惑
Like the soil grasping the flower's confusion.

像天空纏綿雨的洶湧
Like the sky sticking to rain's turbulence.

在你的身後
By your side

計算的步伐每個背影
counting every step, shadow,

每個場景
and setting

都有發過的夢
that had once dreamt.

帶我走 到遙遠的以後
Take me away to a remote future.

帶走我 一個人自轉的寂寞
Take me away (where) loneliness is self rotated.

帶我走 就算我的愛
Take me away even if my love,

你的自由 都將成為泡沫
your freedom, will all become foam.

我不怕 帶我走
I'm not scared, take me away.

每次我總 獨自遠走
Everytime, it's always me going far away alone.

抱著緘默 不皺眉頭
Holding onto loneliness, not scowling.

這次你卻說一起走
This time however, you said to go together.

彼此溫柔 從此以後
Our warmth from now on is

像土壤抓緊花的迷惑
like the soil grasping the flower's confusion.

像天空纏綿雨的洶湧
Like the sky sticking to rain's turbulence.

在你的身後
By your side

計算的步伐每個背影
counting every step, shadow,

每個場景
and setting

都有發過的夢
that had once dreamt.

帶我走 到遙遠的以後
Take me away to a remote future.

帶走我 一個人自轉的寂寞
Take me away (where) loneliness is self rotated.

帶我走 就算我的愛
Take me away even if my love,

你的自由 都將成為泡沫
your freedom, will all become foam.

我不怕 帶我走
I'm not scared, take me away.

白馬溜過 漆黑盡頭
The white horse slips away and it's the end of darkness.

潮汐襲來 浪花顫動
The tides are attacking, the ocean is trembling.

凝在海岸結成了墨 Oh~
Staring at the seacoast forming into ink. Oh~

薔薇朝向 草原氣球
The rose is (facing) towards the balloon.

郵差傳來 一地彩虹
The postman arrives with a rainbow.

刻在心中拍打著脈搏~
The throbbing of a slap is engraved into (my) heart.

帶我走 到遙遠的以後
Take me away to a remote future.

帶走我 一個人自轉的寂寞
Take me away (where) loneliness is self rotated.

帶我走 就算我的愛
Take me away even if my love,

你的自由 都將成為泡沫
your freedom, will all become foam.

我不怕 帶我走
I'm not scared, take me away.

帶我走 就算我的愛
Take me away even if my love,

你的自由 都將成為泡沫
your freedom, will all become foam.

帶我走~
Take me away.~

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The Little Nyonya 【小娘惹】 主题曲
Olivia Ong ~ 如燕

愿意合上眼才能美梦无边
Willing to close your eyes and you'll be able to dream boundlessly

别让悔熏乌了从前
Don't let regret cloud the past

也许碎片才能让回忆展颜
Perhaps the broken pieces can make past memories continue

何妨瓷花拼凑明天
Where porcelain flower assembles tomorrow

谁带我寻获幸福的模
Who leads me to search for the happiness mold

却自己谜中困锁
but landed himself in distress

谁为我留下缱绻的天涯
Who leaves behind the deep and unwavering horizon for me

信物是抹晚霞
The faith token is like the fading sunset glow

Chorus:
思念如燕它飞舞舌尖
The missing for you like a swallow dancing in the air with its tip of tongue

若是真爱配尝几分苦甜
If it is true love which blend with the taste of bittersweet

意念婆娑时间里推磨
The idea whirls and turning the millstone within time

追随到何处才结果
When will the chasing end?

燕如针线在青空缝编
Swallow like needle and thread sewing in the open air

几幅女红将以泪缀点
To make a needlework stitched together with tears of heroine

誓言斑驳情雾只是经过
The promise is a flaw and feeling of emotions is merely a process

风雨中且让我盈步婀娜
I walk through wind and rain with graceful steps

A new year... it was my birthday... and I'm one year older...

2008 has ended and with the passing of the new year, I am 27! Gosh... I still cannot believe how time flies... When I was 17, when my birthday still meant everything to me... the day I would turn 27 seemed so faraway and unreal. Never would I expect to want to have a quiet one this year... I just could not seem to feel excited about it... maybe it's a late 20s self identity crisis... maybe I was unwell... maybe I was just too tired... I just felt like a totally different person... more subdued...

I just had some downtime with friends and family... which was nice in its own way... I guess that's what I needed... dinner, drinks, singing and lotsa laughter! =) Of course, who could forget the poo-poo complete with flies nestled in a pretty box from my dear cousin and melicious fren? Haha... thanks for making me laff so much! Hmmmz did I happen to spot someone familiar in the crowd on New Year's day?! What a small world indeed...

I really appreciate all the wishes, lovely gifts, company and good food that I have gotten this December. * muacks to u people! * At the stroke of midnight, I received a couple of wishes, which was nice, really... including an apologetic wish from my sista in China (still waiting for my OCK curry puff wor), my nemesis TPH bro's rowdy proclamation of 'The Jiao Day'... haha... followed by my close friends & others, which was nice, really... the feeling of being remembered in small ways... it's the thought that really counts. =) (I'm not surprised at all that you forgot, but it's alright... it no longer matters now... 'Happy New Year' does not count... maybe you even did it on purpose... sigh...)

Looking back on the past year in retrospective, reflecting on things I could have done better and things I should not have done... my merits and failings as a person... I guess 2008 ain't perfect... there are 2 ways I can look at it... it's either a year clocked full of disappointments... or I could say it's a year full of surprises and one that I've learnt a lot from. I prefer to choose to think in a positive manner, no doubt with the constant help of people who are concerned for me, people who have sensed the weakness & sadness in me, but may not have witnessed me at my most emotionally vulnerable self...

Maybe I'm too prideful at times... I may often appear upbeat, cheerful and a bit cranky... but I guess it's my way of escaping... choosing to reflect on the best bits... instead of dwelling on the worst.. the ability to sense what's really within a person beneath the exterior and the urge to change something bad into good... BUT it's also this very same trait that leads to unnecessary lingering sentimental nostalgia of memories that should have been discarded long ago... and it's sometimes impossible to change some things... BUT I am after all, human. Some things are easier said than done... what a contradiction I am. My real bro told me that I should never start my sentences with BUT, because it just stands for defensive self-denial... a bad habit which I have kicked more or less... BUT 2 BUTS in a sentence? Contradictory, I guess. :p

I guess time will heal with my own determination... with that, comes the realization that people around me are waiting for me to be happy once again. I am truly thankful to my friends who care and worry so much for me... I guess I would prefer to describe what I went through as 'experiences', rather than 'mistakes'... because who does not ever make mistakes in their lives? Nobody's life is free from mistakes... you can erase a pencil mark, but you cannot really erase parts of your life even as much as you would wish to, because it's what you have went through that makes you part of who you are today. I would rather have lived my life, rather than not.... Would you rather have experienced joy and then followed by disappointment, or never have known joy all your life?

Rather than lamenting that life's unfair or people have had it easier than you, through the years, I have come to realise that every experience is there in our lives for a reason... for us to learn something out from it if we put positivity to perspective... this coming from a person naturally prone to pessimism... I believe everyone has their own difficulties... whining about things may help to release pent-up frustration for a while, but the most important thing is to realise that nobody can make the change except YOU. We may not be able change some of the things that happen to us, but what we are able to control are our own perspectives, choices and reactions. That's why people often fail to realise that our biggest enemy is not others, but ourselves. So very true at times. We often talk about people's idiosyncrasies, without realising that we may be like that too and that we often lose to no other than ourselves. We often forget we do have a choice to some extent.

I may have been in a daze and lost direction for quite a while... in fact, I also did not know what came over me... it's logic-defying... I have never felt so out of control. Actually I hated myself for it, and most probably I still do... maybe the wall I've built around myself has crumbled for a while... but as one philosophical friend put it, I should not beat myself over it and learn how to handle complexities better in future... I am still repairing the damage done... indeed, just as I've just learnt in class, satisficing (satisfying by sacrificing) is never an optimal choice... it's not what everyone wants, it's only the closest to what you can have. I think I've grown up... I am more aware of my actions and the impact they have on people. To hurt, whether intentionally or otherwise and to get hurt in return... is all part of life... we just have to learn how to deal with it and move on... high time to leave it all behind us in the old year called 2008... the pain and the hatred... and embark on the new year of 2009 where hopefully better things await us! Woohoo huhu! =p

Haha for a change after so many rich cakes! Multi-layer mini chiffon cakes!

Thanks gers for the annual angbao! This year's in such cute packaging! =)

Thanks gers! I lurrrve this! Beautiful scent in my fav purple!!

Yes... indeed... a lot has changed over the years... but some things remain the same! hee... * admires self reflection in the mirror *


Thanks for motivating me, cousin! I really appreciate it! =)

Thanks Dawnie for the meeeow pendant... =)

Lovely Korean chopsticks and stuff! Thanks ger!

Thanks bro, who knows I just cannot stop eating choc chip cookies! =p

He's thinking "I did not do that!"

"Hmmzz... as smelly as mine??"

He says Thank You! It's all his now! Hohohoo...