Wednesday, February 11, 2009
If I had one wish... Here's my wishlist...
I don't need a lot of wishes coz I'll be okay if I get one... I need peace of mind.
I need to be focused.
I need no distractions.
I need a new phone that does not suddenly break down on me.
I need new track shoes to continue spinning around the track.
I need a new pencilcase for my upcoming exams.
I want a new handbag & wallet for all my
barang barang.
I want to save more, ironically.
I want a new lease of life.
I wish to chill-out by the trees & sea, having my hair blown all messy.
I wish to smell the fresh air and blooms, in essence, nature.
I wish to be pampered suitably, not too little, not too much.
I wish to let loose and have some fun.
I wish to relax my soul.
I wish to be happier.
I don't wanna go into something that makes me uncomfortable.
I don't wanna accept something for the wrong reasons.
I don't wanna end up with a likely bad outcome.
I don't wanna go back the same way.
I don't wanna hurt myself & others.
For those who have
wished to know...
I want someone:
With a great sunshine smile which makes me forget my worries.
Who complements my flaws just as well as how I complement his.
Who can motivate me to do what I'll normally procrastinate about.
Who can understand me inside out without me saying a word.
Who makes me feel comfortable and accepts me 100%.
Who's driven, but yet passionate about balance in life.
Who knows just how to cheer me up when I am down.
Who's not overly-emotional, but yet does not think
it's wimpish to cry when it really hurts at times.
Who's mature, but acts like a kid occasionally.
Who connects with me on different levels.
Who'll be by my side come what may.
Who loves the sun, beach & animals.
Who's sincere and optimistic.
Who makes me laugh.
I don't want & need someone:
Who's all bling on the outside, but possesses no substance inside.
Who asks what I can give him, instead of what he can give me.
Who's nice to me not becoz he cares, but coz of his own agenda.
Who finds it beyond himself to do nice stuff for others.
Who thinks that money & ambition's all-encompassing.
Who's too preoccupied with himself & his own life.
Who does not mean his sorrys & what he says.
Who makes me mostly more sad than happy.
Who lacks initiative & is totally insensitive.
Who can be a complete asshole at times.
Who does not believe in love anymore.
Who has totally no faith in me.
I wanna take up the job, but I can't?
I wanna go on to lead the life I truly desire.
I wanna think fate is kind to me after all.
I wanna think I'm not asking for the stars. =p
I want. I need. I wish... and I hope. I am a contradiction.
Count backwards 5, 4, 3, 2, 1
Before you get too heated
You should have learned your lessons all them times before,
You've been bruised, you've been broken
Then there's my mind saying think before you go,
Through that door that could lead you to nowhere,
Has got you all romantic, crazy in your head,
You think I'd listen, no I don't care
Can't focus I can't stop,
You got me spinning round, round, round, round (like a record),
Can't focus, it's too hot.
You'll never get to Heaven if you're scared of getting high
My conscience saying, get down off the streets,
It's too dangerous and deadly,
Has got you talking round in circles can't you see
And as my friends say, stop before you fall,
I don't wanna pick you up again,
Has got you all romantic, crazier each day,
You think I'd listen, there's no way
Can't focus I can't stop,
You got me spinning round, round, round, round (like a record),
Can't focus, it's too hot.
You'll never get to Heaven if you're scared of getting high
Friday, February 6, 2009
Time just flew over the cuckoo's nest... hectic lunar niu year came (was so tiring and fun with all the birthdays, springcleaning & visitations!) and now it's already february... which means it's only 14 weeks away from my exams... I guess at this point of time, I cannot be distracted. Maybe Heaven's testing my willpower... something always happens at the last minute... and I always do things last minute! haha... (I was also born in the last few minutes of the year... =p)
Had a good talk over dinner & yet another a.m coffee session with couzzy... thanks for listening and being so patient even though you have work the next day... =) It feels so much better now... phew... thanks too to my dear friends who constantly remind me about what I really want and need ultimately in life... I know it's all for my own good... but believe me when I say I am stronger than what I look like... I've hardened myself against manipulation... may I have the strength to carry on & I just wish
I will not be swayed by you so easily again... I know deep down, you are still the same... Talk about spot on gut instincts! It's scary.... it's the second time... bumping into A the moment I mention his name... it's been a while and he still loves to make people laugh... what a humourous guy! Miss those days in office...
Not to mention bumping into a few fake mccoys... hahaha.... it's becoming a comical joke... mention a name and a lookalike turns around the corner! Be careful of what you wish for... u might just get it... =p Ahh... we spotted a local celeb too.. with an ego problem... because he constantly noticed our attention on him... =p
Ahhh... wassup with chance encounters of late? I keep bumping into familiar faces!
Sometimes, it's funny how a stranger can light up your day... with just a great smile and light conversation... I realised you can make friends anywhere as long as you are open to people... in the lecture hall, when you're downstairs dogwalking and even in the cab!
Wonder if by a brush of fate, will I get to see you again? I hope for better days with peace of mind ahead... maybe a dose of mother nature / lavender will help me... together with a new pillow! * down with stomach flu & a serious neck-ache * In the meanwhile, nothing matters more than you, my dear books! Here I come...
Kylie Minogue ~ So Now GoodbyeRemember when I saw you for the first time
I never thought you'd be mineThen we went ahead and fell in love
Heaven was a common ground
We were never coming down
The two of us we had more than enough
You and I are not the same
To you love is just a game
Things will never be the same again
So now goodbye
This time I will be gone goodbye
Stayed for way too long
Started out with trust
But it isn't just about the good times babyRemember all the promises we swore to
Can't say I didn't warn youHow I did adore you way back then (I did adore you adore you)
Ohhhhh
But you broke a solemn vow
Ha! you're paying for it now
Wouldn't you expect more from a friend
You and I are not the same
To you love is just a game
Things will never be the same again So now goodbye
This time I will be gone goodbye
I stayed for way too long
I don't need you now
And I am oh so tired of excuses baby
Goodbye
This time I will be gone goodbye
Stayed for way to long this time
It all started out with trust
But it isn't about the good times baby
Jennifer Lopez ~ Ain't It FunnyIt seemed to be like the perfect thing for you and me
It's so ironic you're what I had pictured you to be
But there are facts in our lives
We can never change
Just tell me that you understand and you feel the same
This perfect romance that I've created in my mind
I'd live a thousand lives
Each one with you right by my side
But yet we find ourselves in a less than perfect circumstance
And so it seems like we'll never have the chance
Ain't it funny how some feelings you just can't deny
And you can't move on even though you try
Ain't it strange when you're feeling things you shouldn't feel
Oh, I wish this could be real
Ain't it funny how a moment could just change your life
And you don't want to face what's wrong or right
Ain't it strange how fate can play a part
In the story of your heart
Sometimes I think that a true love can never be
I just believe that somehow it wasn't meant for me
Life can be cruel in a way that I can't explain
And I don't think that I could face it all again
I barely know you but somehow I know what you're about
A deeper love I've found in you
And I no longer doubt
You've touched my heart and it altered every plan I've made
And now I feel that I don't have to be afraid
Ain't it funny how some feelings you just can't deny
And you can't move on even though you try
Ain't it strange when you're feeling things you shouldn't feel
Oh, I wish this could be real
Ain't it funny how a moment could just change your life
And you don't want to face what's wrong or right
Ain't it strange how fate can play a part
In the story of your heart
I locked away my heart
But you just set it free
Emotions I felt
Held me back from what my life should be
I pushed you far away
And yet you stayed with me
I guess this means
That you and me were meant to be(?)
