By day, she's a cute, 'lil fluffy doggie sitting in the windowpane that everyone loves to hug & fuss over, and always eager to please.
However when her fur gets ruffled all too often, she transforms into a wild kitty who bites when her tail gets stepped on repetitively...
and goes out for night escapades once in a blue moon.
Blogs occasionally for the bite,
so that she can heal her pain.
I love nature, lavender & pretty blooms..
I love sweet shades of pink & purple,
with a passion for warm brown & red..
I love enjoying my comforting cup of hot cocoa / tea sans sugar / milk tea or coffee / durin' tête-à-tête sessions. =)
So do I love good food, sinfully decadent desserts, chi chi high teas, sippin' wine & cocktails in the evening breeze amid soothing, soulful jazz and sexy, funky disco house music... with good company, of coz...
Admittedly a creature of habit & comfort...
Simple things such as laughin' over a good movie to escape from mundane reality, sweatin' off the negative vibes unglamourously, pickin' up an engagin' read on a lazy day, with my dog restin' at my feet, havin' a warm cup of cocoa on a rainy day indoors, indulgin' excessively in creamy choc pralines & truffles, spendin' time outdoors with nature... lush greenery & aquamarine sea, taking snapshots of things and people for memories, meetin' happy & fluffy doggies...
make me happy too... some good ol' music / retail therapy for the soul helps too... =p
Sittin' atop the hill... watchin' the world pass by... the flutterin' leaves & flowers in the breeze... onward on the journey i continue... smellin' the freshness of the air... awaitin' the next scenery at the next hilltop in anticipation... which will take my breath away... & invigorate my senses...
Contrary to popular belief, I am not the owner of all the free time & luxury in the world. There's such a thing called opportunity cost & choices have to be made. Choices that seem easier to make than to live with in reality. Lookin' at just the surface is just being simply superficial.
In today's world, where boundaries between reality and illusions are blurred, genuine sincerity is hard to find.
There's a thin line between sanity and insanity.
Believes that the world not only exists in black and white, but also in different shades of greys....
Last night, I had disturbed sleep... again.. it's been a week of not sleeping well... but today feels different... never mind the poor spirits due to lack of sleep... maybe keeping myself busy & immersing myself in work helped... maybe blogging helped... maybe music & television helped... maybe reading helped... maybe havin' supportive (and yes, crappy) frens helped too... maybe my own perspective on things seems to have changed... suddenly, everything just seems like a distant, bad dream... I feel so different now that I wonder if I am still the same person... or maybe I am just back to being myself again... but somehow something about me feels changed... maybe more subdued and grown up with a clearer mind? What used to matter does not matter anymore... what used to be good may not be good anymore... I am just glad that I am no longer blinded... =)
I feel more serene than I have been in a while.. like I am in a different time frame... looking back at things from a different angle... as I have learnt, futile hope can be dangerous... I am now stronger... more resilient than ever and most importantly, I know what I truly need at the end of a day... life's empty if I do not experience it fully, with all its sweetness, sourness, bitterness & spiciness... there should be no regrets... even if the road I took is less travelled, maybe I gotta go through twisty, winding long roads to reach my ultimate destination... though I feel weary, I can stop and enjoy the scenery on the way there... it's wealth of another kind... maybe like what one of my close frens said, 'you need to experience what's bad to appreciate the good.'... I realise I've come to treasure & enjoy the really nice things & people in my life more...
In a strange way, it almost feels like I have experienced serendipity... serendipity meaning making fortunate discoveries by accident... This English author, Horace Walpole came up with this term & explained that this name was part of the title of "a silly fairy tale, called The Three Princes of Serendip: as their highnesses traveled, they were always making discoveries, by accidents and sagacity, of things which they were not in quest of...." Just when you think you have stumbled upon something unfortunate, some fortunate discovery might have come out of it after all... coincidentally, it so happens that the house starred in the movie, 'Nights in Rodanthe' is called Serendipity in real life... (nothing to do with the movie of the same name)... a house known for its extreme proximity to the sea... but has been condemned since Mar due to its septic system being damaged after a storm with high waters... whatever holds for the future of this house, the beauty and charm of it has already been captured on film for all to behold...
Last night... I read this... "Everyone comes into our life, to teach us a lesson"... and I feel that it's rather true... different incidents & people constantly teach us something new at different stages of our lives and that may not be something bad after all.... maybe that's what you call fate... some things are meant to happen and some people are meant to come into your life, no matter how brief the respite is... just be grateful for the good moments... as long as our souls are not tarnished by extreme bitterness after all the stormy weather & roller coaster rides... hopefully, we can become someone we wish to be and we can look back and smile at our own past foolishness...
since 28 September, 2008
