By day, she's a cute, 'lil fluffy doggie sitting in the windowpane that everyone loves to hug & fuss over, and always eager to please.
However when her fur gets ruffled all too often, she transforms into a wild kitty who bites when her tail gets stepped on repetitively...
and goes out for night escapades once in a blue moon.
Blogs occasionally for the bite,
so that she can heal her pain.
I love nature, lavender & pretty blooms..
I love sweet shades of pink & purple,
with a passion for warm brown & red..
I love enjoying my comforting cup of hot cocoa / tea sans sugar / milk tea or coffee / durin' tête-à-tête sessions. =)
So do I love good food, sinfully decadent desserts, chi chi high teas, sippin' wine & cocktails in the evening breeze amid soothing, soulful jazz and sexy, funky disco house music... with good company, of coz...
Admittedly a creature of habit & comfort...
Simple things such as laughin' over a good movie to escape from mundane reality, sweatin' off the negative vibes unglamourously, pickin' up an engagin' read on a lazy day, with my dog restin' at my feet, havin' a warm cup of cocoa on a rainy day indoors, indulgin' excessively in creamy choc pralines & truffles, spendin' time outdoors with nature... lush greenery & aquamarine sea, taking snapshots of things and people for memories, meetin' happy & fluffy doggies...
make me happy too... some good ol' music / retail therapy for the soul helps too... =p
Sittin' atop the hill... watchin' the world pass by... the flutterin' leaves & flowers in the breeze... onward on the journey i continue... smellin' the freshness of the air... awaitin' the next scenery at the next hilltop in anticipation... which will take my breath away... & invigorate my senses...
Contrary to popular belief, I am not the owner of all the free time & luxury in the world. There's such a thing called opportunity cost & choices have to be made. Choices that seem easier to make than to live with in reality. Lookin' at just the surface is just being simply superficial.
In today's world, where boundaries between reality and illusions are blurred, genuine sincerity is hard to find.
There's a thin line between sanity and insanity.
Believes that the world not only exists in black and white, but also in different shades of greys....
It's 2.40am.... early morning... it's been a week of great communication and conversation with old & new friends.... a week of feeling sick and dehydrated... and an emotional upheaval too... I am sick & sick of being upset.
I recognise that I've changed. I recognise that some dynamics have changed. I recognise how stubbornly I've been holding on. I recognise for sure now that all this while, it's been a misfit. I've been shoving my feet insistently into a pair of shoes that does not fit me, for the wrong reasons... even though I do not love this pair of shoes enough anymore to feel like wanting to buy them.
A pair that seemed to have stable heels that gave me a sense of security at first... a pair that seemed to be different from all the shiny patent ones that I've seen so far... but maybe the material used is too hard for my delicate feet... which in turn makes them hurt in silent pain... the material's too rigid to ever contour nicely to my feet... or maybe I find the shoes too simple & matte now... I want to find a pair that's presentable enough for work, but yet comfortable enough for leisure... not something that only spells W-O-R-K all over it! I've decided to discard it to find the right fit... no point tormenting myself! Just like how Jimmy Choos ain't for everyone... the hefty price tag just ain't worth all the huge blisters I'll get! I will not be able to take it in the long run and just fall down the stairs. Misery should not be self-created. Yes, indeed. "I do have a choice." Suddenly, the shoe shop seems so big! =p No more time to waste!
I will not be forced to change just to meet someone's expectations and be on the same frequency as that person. If you're not comfortable with the concept of "me", you can forget about it.
P.S I am grateful for the friends who can really understand my mind, heart and soul! Thanks, Bestie & Bother... our friendship is indeed priceless, just like a glass of warm milk. =) * goes to sleep with a comforted soul *
since 28 September, 2008